Today I quit my job!

“Did I ever tell you what the definition of insanity is? Insanity is doing the exact… same fucking thing… over and over again expecting… shit to change… That. Is. Crazy. The first time somebody told me that, I dunno, I thought they were bullshitting me, so, boom, I shot him. The thing is… he was right. And then I started seeing, everywhere I looked, everywhere I looked all these fucking pricks, everywhere I looked, doing the exact same fucking thing… over and over and over and over again thinking: “This time is gonna be different. No, no, no, please… This time is gonna be different.”

A beautiful yet scary quote from a video game. I don’t want to discredit the writer of said video game but I’m not entirely sure that philosophy is a new one, just summed up perfectly in a short paragraph and performed excellently in far cry 3!

To give some context to the video I have made. I just walked out of my job. I subcontracted my photography services to a large company for the past year and a half. The job was simple! Take photos of their client’s inventory, the same 9 photos over and over again and do as many of said products as possible, in a short of an amount of time as possible for 9 hours straight, day in and day out. The job was very well paid and because it was for such a large company it kind of seemed worth it…at least I thought.

The environment I had to work in was tall white plasterboard surrounded by corticated metal and dimly lit studio lights and a cold concrete flaw. The location was in the middle of the countryside in the wilderness surrounded by petrol fumes and dying nature. It was cold, so cold because the building itself would harbor all the natural elements surrounding it then maximise them for your discomfort. If it was zero degrees outside the studio it would be minus 5 inside. At first, there were no toilets so if you needed a crap you had to drive a mile or pinch it till you got home. When the toilets were installed they were mainly used by the slave migrant staff and abused, I’m talking pissing all over the seat and leaving shit rags on the floor. But It was so cold, freezing after 10 minutes you couldn’t move your hands or feel your feet and if you were like me wearing 3 layers of thermals, gloves, hats, and socks? It didn’t make any difference.

So you’ve got a repetitive job, a bad work environment and following that you’ve got bully management, condescending staff, sociopathic photographers and white walls to stare out for 9 hours a day. It drove me insane. There’s a lot more to this story which I will probably go into another time but the point of my video and this post is to briefly discuss the notion of selling your self-short, putting up with things that don’t make your self-happy and moving on.

Never sell yourself short! You are worth more than what you think. You can get into a mindset of “This will do” and “I can’t do any better”. That’s bullshit! Aim high and take what you deserve. To take anything less than what you want is selling yourself short. Don’t up with things that don’t make you happy. By doing this your prolonging suffering, take yourself out of the situation, the time is now not later. Move on! It’s over, looking back at, it analyzing it isn’t going to change it, it happened and there is nothing more for you to take from the situation other than what you have taken. If this resonates with you maybe it’s time to make the changes and maybe the time is now! But don’t wait forever because you’re scared. Move on and open a new door.

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