I’ve been sitting with this for some time now and have felt its time to introduce myself to the world, I’ve tried many times before but something in the universe tells me it’s right and any level of self-doubt I have is overshadowed by a feeling I have in myself. A feeling for a need to change, to be reborn. This is my introduction to my self and you! All bones barred, every wart and pimple exposed. My plan and hope are that as I construct this virtual space it will not only become an area of reflection on a personal level, but it will turn into a true calling for me, something I can shape and build into my own. My hope is to meet new people along the way and shape this space into a platform for something bigger and better than its intent. Here’s me. Here’s who I am.
I was born on September 2nd, 1989 to my mother and father in a small town in the Midlands known as Nuneaton. I was somewhat of an extroverted child but weirdly shy at the same time (a dichotomy I still suffer from). On the one hand I wanted to keep myself to myself but on the other hand you put me in a room full of people and I’m I was an explosion and laughter and fun (and still am to this day)!
Early teens I continued this trend but developed a weed habit that could only rival snoop dog on a good day. I largely spent most of my teens getting high in car parks, eating fried chicken and being a virgin! I didn’t have my first proper sexual experience till I was 18 with a stunner I went to university with, but I tell every one I was 16 with the hot chick we used to hang around on a council estate (I couldn’t get it up, I was so nervous!) After a nervous breakdown at university at the tender age of 18 that’s when my young adult years began.
After breaking my weed habit, I went through my first bout of depression causing a shift in my attitude towards life. I picked up worse habits, cocaine, alcohol, 20 cigarettes a day, mild womanising and pizza delivery to fuel it all. I went back to university to get a degree in media production which I still use to this day! And I am currently at a point in my life where I am looking for direction or at the very least creating one myself. I’ve done some bad fucked up things in my life but at the same time I have a good heart, I care about people and I want change…and I have to make that change.
I’m a spiritual person, I’m not sure on what level at this point in time but I believe there is something more to me and everyone else on this planet!
I’m creative. I love to create. I love to write, create art, video, photography, sing, play guitar, cook! Anything! Just give me something to create
I’m not the guy I describe in all of the above. With age I have matured and sure some bad habits stick around, but I don’t do drugs anymore, smoke or even deliver pizza for that matter.
Like all of us, I’ve been through a lot and still going through that but I can now see there is light in the darkness! There always has been and there all ways will be.
I can change! We all can! Let’s change together! I hate to quote president trump but “It’s going to be great!”
So that was an introduction, a starting point and to some extent a confession! I’m excited to start this journey of blogging, writing and creating! Even if something I do resonates with one person that’s a personal victory and to a bigger extent someone I can share this journey with. You, me we are the island in that sea of shit! So let’s plant a pineapple tree!
Thank you for taking the time to read this, I hope you enjoyed! Feel free to comment and introduce yourself I would love to meet you. Till next time, peace!